Ranzish....

Only...

2011-12-24T17:46:00.000+05:30

What are you but the smallest piece of this world...what's your purpose but to change as the world around you does and just wait for your time to end...you think you are of value but you fail to realize the darkness around you...even your soul has darkened...your valor, your energy, your everything is being consumed by the darkness...you are becoming a part of it and will be replaced and forgotten when your time comes...

You think what choice do you have, you have done your best, you have worked hard, you have "achieved" things...but you fail to realize that so have others...look around, the world is full of people like you...you are nothing but a blur to this world...

Baboon - sketch

2011-12-24T17:36:00.001+05:30

Intended to upload this since a few weeks...a simple non abstract sketch after a long long time...
Guess it doesn't need any explanation on my part :)

Out of place...

2011-09-11T20:31:00.003+05:30

A painting after a long long time...

This tells about the situation when things are out of place, when situations change, your life changes and its just not in place...the bottom half represents the present, when things are gloomy, you are unhappy, alone...and the upper half represents the good times, when you were happy, when you used to enjoy every moment of your life...but sadly they are just memories now...they don't fit into your present...things are just out of place...not the same now, will not be the same again...

Painting and then photoshop to help the cause :)

Alone...

2011-06-10T22:17:00.003+05:30

Back after a loooonggg time...but a full time job really eats up all the time u have...

neways...this ones called "Alone"...it shows how and where a man is alone...his only support his himself...when he is crying...he's alone...when he's reaching out, trying to achieve something he's alone....even when he gets everything he wants, he's all powerful...he's alone...when his heart aches, when his age tests his body...he's alone...he's alone even when he's in a crowd for no one can understand him...no one can see inside him...

The tree signifies his life...what it becomes...all these events are like the roots which lead to this bare tree...

Mithya...

2011-01-24T14:15:00.003+05:30

This story is about a woman who lives in different worlds...her work, her home, her relatives, her dreams...all of them are around her (symbolized by the rectangular frames)...she is the same in all but the things around her change...in some she is all alone, in some she is surrounded by people, some like her and some different...she tries to be in the reality but something pulls her back to her illusion...her dreams (symbolized by the bubbles) try to become a part of her reality (symbolized by the big red frame in the center)...in some she is a princess, in some she is an ocean...in some she is the moon, in some she is the air...she tries to achieve them...some are well within her reach and some are far beyond...some are too dark or unclear for her to see...
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She tries to maintain a balance between the illusion and the reality...tries to be practical...but she is pulled into the illusion again and again...she has to realize that she has to stop trying for her illusions is a path to her dreams...she can't be happy in this real world, their are far too many unrealized or broken dreams in it...she has to stop trying...she has to stop crying...
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No photoshop this time :)...plain sketch and paint...just adjusted the contrast and colour balance in photoshop...

Another...

2010-11-22T04:47:00.000+05:30

Don't stop...u have to go on...
on another journey...
You have to let go your desires...
for another destination awaits...
You can't look back...
for another path lies ahead...
You can't sleep...
for its time for another day...
You are resting...
but another race is to start...
You want everything to just slow down...
to look around...
To relish what you have achieved...
or cry over your loss...
But you can't...
may be some other day...
Why do you need to succeed???
can't you just do with a few losses...
You know tomorrow is another day...
you can rise from my losses...
But why...when you know the day will be over soon...
you know what you'd leave behind is dear...
What stands at the end of the path isn't you...
you'r what you r...just a common man...
But people say you r not...
that you r different...
Then why do you feel things...
why do you cry when m sad...
Why do you need love...
like everyone else...
Why are your emotions not just skin deep...
why do sorrows pierce your heart...
You know you'll get over it...
you always do...
Is that why you'r different...
is that why you always wait for another chance...
Always wait for another day...
so that you can forget what has gone...

Jiya...

2010-07-14T12:40:00.003+05:30

Finally got time to make something...This one's about a girl (again :P)
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The girl has dreams...some are clear some are not...she wants to reach great heights...and is determined to do so...(signified by the buildings in the bkgrnd)...She goes on a journey...spreads her wings to fulfill those dreams but something is holding her back...her wings are tied in chains...she has all these thoughts of failure...of defeat that she isn't ready to face it...not now...but in the fear she fails to realize that the chains are her own fears...her own apprehensions...which are stopping her from moving on the path...from flying...
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But she has the world of her dreams lying ahead of her...so much to get...so much to see...she has to shed her fears to make her wings...to make herself...FREE...fly high and fulfill her dreams...
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The painting is again first a sketch and then colored in photoshop...
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Hope you like it :)

All about my mother...

2009-08-23T01:46:00.003+05:30

First time it has happened that a movie moved me n motivated me to paint...saw this wonderful movie a couple of days back...the movie was called 'All about my mother'...won't disclose the story here wud leave the suspense for u to watch...wud just say that its about a mother who faces similar situations over and over again but even then she doesn't give up...
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She is caught up in these chains...she tries to find hope in each and everything that fate does with her...tries to cope up with it...but they cease to exist...she is injured...deeply wounded...but even then she wants to move on...even then she goes towards the light...to get away from this darkness...but wud her efforts help...she doesn't know...she just knows that she has to move on...if not for her then for those she cares for...and she does...
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this time i tried for a different medium...did the base sketch on my table with a marker :D (scribbling is fun :P...plus u can erase it all with ur deodorant ;)...n obvsly photoshop had to creep in for the final touch :P...
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hope u like it :)

Ram...

2009-07-31T15:19:00.003+05:30

Another boring lecture and another deity avatar :)...
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This time its none other than Suryavanshi Shri Ram...(man i need to study!!!)
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I guess no explanation is required for this...simple sketch n then photoshop...Seeta and Laxman are surely round the corner :)

Hanuman

2009-07-25T02:04:00.002+05:30

Well...when u have no interest in what the prof is saying...m nothing better to do...u infact want to kill urself 'coz u can't stand the prof ne more...such things come out :P ;)....
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This is another avatar of Hanuman ji...so 2nd one in the line (man...m obsessed with Gods :P)..
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No explanation...just a pen sketch n coloured in photoshop...

Dvibahu...

2009-06-14T11:24:00.008+05:30

I've always talked about a character called "Dvibahu"...infact I even sign my artwork by the same name...Dvibahu is me...and this is what it looks like...

The first time I made it was when I was in 10th standard...after that it had undergone a number of changes...will have to dig in my stuffs for the 1st version...

No paint...only photoshop this time...

So here's Dvibahu for u...

Dahleez...

2009-06-07T16:41:00.004+05:30

U can call this the second part of Chakshu...'coz the topic and the feeling with which i made this is the same...this one's again a painting with minimum photoshopgiri...got the idea of it while was teaching in my LA class :P...
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Here's something bout it...
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She's a girl...peeking through her window...but isn't able to cross the doorstep or "dahleez"...she thinks she's locked inside...she thinks the door is latched...so makes little effort to break free...she thinks she's content with what she has...and leaves everything to destiny...she doesn't even speak for she fears being noticed...she has formed a shield of all her memories around herself...sweet memories like her first bike...her barbie doll...her teddy bear soft toy...her family...her first crush...her love...and she's too afraid to loose all these...so she fears to explore the world outside her door...
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but in this...she isn't able to see that the latch isn't hinged...the door just needs a little push and it'll break open...the world is out their waiting for her...she just needs to be brave enough...leave her past behind and not worry too much about the future...spontaneity is the best thing about life...u can't always worry about everything and forgo what you could have had...what could have been the best moments of your life...
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so give the door a push...just a little one will do...cross the "dahleez"and see what this world has there for you...

Chakshu...

2009-05-26T12:00:00.007+05:30

This painting is about a girl who sees this world from a different viewpoint...who has just a small opening to reality and doesn't want anymore of it...She likes to live in her own world...think about her own dreams...she is hiding herself...but keeping an eye on the part of the world that matters to her...or does it...she doesn't know...but likes to think that it does...She doesn't want to show herself to this world because she is too scared...scared of what people will think...scared of what they'll do to her...will she be able to handle this world all by herself...she doesn't know...she has faced a lot and doesn't want to face more of it...she wants peace...for this world to leave her alone...not talk about her...she wants to be invisible...but she can't...the world won't let her be...

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'Chakshu' is just an appeal to all the people who just gossip about anyone and everyone without thinking what effect that'll have on the ones who already have a lot to face and cannot take it anymore...So please...try to understand and help rather than enjoying their case at supper...

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And for all those who have to face this world...you have to come out...this world talks only as long as you let them...and even if they do...it doesn't matters...the only thing that matters is you...

Koi khas nahi...

2009-05-05T12:46:00.002+05:30

After a long time it has happened that someone's thoughts have influenced n made me think and paint...the thoughts portrayed in this painting are not mine...but somehow i m related...

Not much to say about it though...i guess the original lines which Neha wrote wud describe it best...So here goes...

Koi pooche kaun hun 'main'
to kah dena koi khas nahi...
ek dost hai kachchi pakki si
ek jhooth hai aadhi sachchi si...
jazbaat ko dhake parde se
kahani hai ek achchi si...
jivan ki achchi saathi hai
jo dur nahi aur pass bhi nahi...
koi pooche kaun hun main
to kah dena 'koi khas nahi'...

Hope i was able to paint what you wanted to say...Thanks :)

Ganesh ji..

2009-04-11T10:04:00.004+05:30

Lord Gansehji...lambodar, vighn harak, siddhi vinayak, ek dant and many more names of lord ganeshji are existant...I used to visit this fabulous temple, Khajrana, in Indore with my parents...have always asked for favours from the lord :P...may it be a new bicycle, a good rank in school results, selection in IIT or nething else...Lord ganesha has given it all...So here's my tribute to the almighty Lord Ganeshji may his blessings besow upon all...

Now a few things about the artwork...I had to revert back to photoshop for this one...this sketch was made just by chance...I always used to make these curves wherever I found some blank space and one day i noticed that unknowingly i had made ganeshji...so immediately took out my sketch book and made a bigger and refined version of the same...

Hope u like it :)

Hanuman ji

2009-04-07T09:51:00.004+05:30

Another attempt to create my avatar of a hindu deity...This time its my favourite...Lord Hanuman ji...

This is a scene from Ramayan where Hanuman ji tears off his chest to show that Shri Ram and Godess Sita reside in his heart...

This time I have used a combination of paints and photoshop...photoshop coming in play only for editing a few things and adding a few shades...

I haven't changed his basic form...have just made it in a slightly different style...

Grahan...

2009-04-07T08:48:00.006+05:30

Another book, another experience...but this was different...this stayed with me even after finishing the book...i must say Paulo Coelho is hell of a writer...The simplicity of his language and complexity of thoughts don't let you leave the book...

"Brida" was all about dreams...the choices we have...the boundations we realize at the last moment...the helplessness we face...and in the end the decision we have to make...fabulous...

I could really relate to the "Magus" in it...he knows what he has to do...but that's not what he wants to do...he isn't a superhuman...no...he has the wisdom of knowledge but its burden is far more than its absence ever was...just think what u'll feel if u knew everything but weren't able to do nething about it due to ur own boundations...due to the shell u urself built once around u...u are in this different dimension where u have only responsibilities 'coz everytime ur "soulmate" comes along u can't have her 'coz u r too scared of the consequences...u r not afraid of the light but of the shadows it casts...

I'm sure that u'll relate to one of the characters...the helpless teacher "Magus"...the silent watcher "Wicca"...the innocent lover "Lorens" or the confused student "Brida"...or even all of them...I found a reflection of a bit of my own self in all of them...

As its evident the book brought with itself a series of thoughts...it flodded me with emotions...and the painting "Grahan" (not 'eclipse' but 'to take') was the consequence...I tried my hands on actual paints after a long long time...no photoshop in this...only poster colours and markers...I have tried to put a bit of all the characters in it...the rage and protective shell of Magus...the task of accepting wisdom of Brida...the beauty of Loreans...the silence of Wicca and more importantly the Void...the emptiness which each of them experiences...

Hope u all like it :)

Freedom...

2009-01-06T19:59:00.005+05:30

I'm tired of this world....all the constraints....one's life depends on limitless number of factors, only a few of which are in one's hands....sometimes I wish I had wings so that I could fly away whenever and wherever I want....away from everything...just to be alone....just to have some silence....just to have some peace.... Sometimes I wish that this world should just stop!!!...that everyone should forget everything and live just for the moment...without any bondages...

I have a desire...a desire to break free of all the shackles of this world...a desire to be independent...a desire to have FREEDOM....

I guess a lot of people would have the same feeling....but they are too busy and too bound to do something about it....lets just wish someday I'd be able to do something....

"I thought why wasn't SOMEONE doing something???.....then I realized that I was that SOMEONE"....

Destiny....

2008-12-05T18:57:00.004+05:30

Couldn't think of an innovative title for this one.....so named it "Destiny" (yeah....I try to b innovative in other titles :D)...

This has the age old Hand again (infact i named this image "hand" earlier :P).....so a bit of retrospection...

Again...all credits to sunny for the colour scheme.....I had the usual shades of brown and ochure....,may be a tinge of red somewhere, in my mind....but sunny suggested to go with blue, green and shades of orange and yellow.....n it looks better that way :)...

Tapp - original

2008-12-05T18:51:00.003+05:30

This is the original Tapp image (hand sketch + photoshopgiri as usual).......finally found some time to edit and paint it in photoshop (I wonder where all my lukkha time goes given that i have nothing else to do :P)......

Those looking for an explaination can scroll down to the earlier post on Tapp....

I won't take the whole credit of this creation all by myself....my lil bro, sunny, helped me out with the colour scheme of this one.....the blue flame and bluish-green background were his ideaz..... thnx sunny :*.....

Brahm.....

2008-12-04T16:29:00.001+05:30

Well this isn't a new creation.....it has been in my sketch book for like 6-7 years but I re-sketched it with a few editions and ofcourse some photoshopgiri :P.....

Its my version of the Hindu God Brahm, the Creator of all things.... Well according to hindu mythology, lord Brahm had 4 faces, but I picture him as a single face with 4 eyes (the rest two are at the back)......

Interestingly, just while scrolling thru various TV channels...I found a similar figure to be known as a demon somewhere in Spain who was destined to destroy this world but as we can see...cudn't....its ironical how the creator in one part of the world becomes a destroyer in another.....

Arbit paint stuff-3

2008-10-10T09:59:00.000+05:30

NO need to explain the digi-arts or my situation :D.... just some more lukkha time and some more arbit work at 10 in the morning :P.......

Arbit paint stuff-2 : Tapp....

2008-10-10T09:30:00.000+05:30

You sometimes underestimate the power of simple editing tools like MSpaint...... I realized that in the lukkha time I had at P3....

The idea of this painting got into my mind when Karthik (one of my flatmates) was singing one of the Ragas.... I got a strange feeling of devotion, of submission.......... Took a pencil and started sketching whatever that came to my mind... and that resulted in "Tapp"....

But job in a database comes with its disadvantages.... No photoshop to edit my drawing :((...infact I cudn't even have a soft copy of the sketch with me (have to figure out a way to do that asap)...... So in the lukkha time I had, paint came to my rescue.... comp screen became my chart paper and mouse played the role of pencil, eraser and brush and of course I had the very helpful clt+z :P..... and windows picture editor also proves to be helpful at some occasions....

Well I guess the funda of the painting needs no explaination whatsoever...but purani aadat se majboor, I'll xplain it in a few words :D.......

It is basically a man (if u can comprehend that) doing tapp..... Tapp can be for different reasons.... to ask God what he desires....to make up for his sins....or may be just to purify his soul to walk on the divine path......... But one has to do tapp to achieve what he wants....and it is not simply devoting yourself to the almighty...it is working hard to achieve what you aim at....to restrain yourself from all distractions and maintain focus.....that is tapp....

apne lakshya ko hi apna karam bana lena tapp hai....apne andar ki indriyon par kabu pa lena tapp hai.....aur apni shaktiyo ko jaan lena uska parinaam.....

ps : I hope to figure out a way to bring in the soft copy (even my company mail has pains in receiving the pic :(() and post the actual sketch soon :D

Arbit paint stuff-1

2008-10-09T19:13:00.000+05:30

well u don't get to do much stuff when every site is blocked and all u have is MSpaint :(.....
but still just a small tp on my part :D

Rue......

2008-04-08T16:24:00.001+05:30

Regretting what i have done.... i cry for the first time ever...... but the cry isn't heard..... or is it....??? is anybody listening...... is anyone feeling the same as i am now...... i don't know..... all i know is that i screamed it all out..... but is it out yet.....????? am i normal yet...?? i doubt my situation..... i doubt my state...... i m in rue......

i m sad about what happened..... remembering what could have been and what it has turned out to be...... seeing the faces.... feeling the emotions that have passed by...... the warmth they gave me...... i feel sad..... i m in rue....

Just regretting what happened isn't enough...... it doesn't bring back what i have lost..... but i have to do something to fix things...... to make it what it should be...... but i don't know how...... i m in rue.....

I have to learn to be with it..... to learn from what i have done...... but its painful..... to have a smile on your face when you are crying from within...... but i have to do it........ to face what i have done......

I m in rue......

aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........

2008-04-07T08:08:00.001+05:30

Do you ever face a situation where its all messed up...... you don't know what you want or what you don't..... just feel like crying out loud..... screaming at the top of your voice..... but you can't........

You feel like its happening all over again.. and you are not able to do a thing to stop it..... to change it.... you know its all your fault but you can do nothing about it....

The sand is simply slipping out of your hand from between your fingers...... and you want to grab it tighter...... you feel insomniac......

You close your eyes and you see all of it again and again...... you don't want to think about it but even can't afford to forget it..... for it has with it the loving memories which you have built in your past..... which you want to take with you till the grave.....

But the sole reason for those memories is dying..... its wanting to get away...... 'coz its the past... it has to go.... but you see your future in it...... you see hope.... you see light.... but its getting dark...... and you can't close your eyes with the fear of darkness swallowing it.... you want to cherish it...... but you can't...... you fear closing your eyes..... you feel insomniac........

You realize that you have built a glass shield around you which can't be broken..... which you once toiled to be stronger than anything else...... but now you want to hit it and hit it hard...... to shatter it to pieces...... but all you can do is cry..... which can't be heard by anyone..... for everything is fading away in darkness......

You fear closing your eyes..... you feel insomniac........

Kite Runner......

2008-04-04T15:51:00.000+05:30

Just read this extremely interesting book..... Kite Runner

First of all its a fabulous piece of art by khaled hosseini.... it really took me in a totally different state of mind.... all the mistakes i had done... right from a small lie to some school teacher to the biggest of mistakes i have done.... all of them were flashing in front of my eyes as i was going through it.... I could really relate to the character "Amir" in it.....

There have ben many instances when my mind had said something and my heart wanted to take a totally different path.... The chickening out of amir at various situations reminded me how i have sometimes let others down and have ran out of trouble just to save myself..... I felt like apologizing to each of them before its too late... I have the chance which amir didn't.....

As some people say..."i have a really bad timing of expressing myself..."..... i felt the same for amir..... he wanted to save his friend..... but all he could think of was fear... the consequences that might arise after that..... Friends..... in every situation of your life you seldom have a single path to take..... there is always a choice and sacrifice.... i think i have taken the wrong ones many times which i regret till date.......

The part where amir stands up for hassan's son shohrab is really what i want to do before its too late..... But i don't know whether i'd be able to gather enough courage to do that... to stand up to someone's expectations..... to make a sacrifice for them..... I don't know what happens to me in such situations......

Am not able to find more words to express the guilt and remorse i am feeling right now simply due to the fact that i couldn't do the right thing at the right time..... I feel even worse because i've always expected friends, and they have, to stand up for me..... to support me.... but all i thought was myself..... what will i get out of it..... will it harm me????.... is it safe enough to speak or interfere????.....

All i want to do is to run, as fast as i can, for the kite floating high in the sky...... try to catch it for my dear ones..... i know its cut.... and is flying freely... going out of my reach with every passing instant..... but i want to run...... to jump as high as i can to grab it.... to hold it to my chest and feel it..... and cry.... cry out loud what i have deep down inside.......

Sorry to all of you whom i have let down..... i know i have.....

These thoughts might appear to be random.... they might appear to be jumbled up..... but this is how it works in my mind..... jumbled..... all webbed up... entangled amongst themselves......

I hope someday i can do what i feel........

B2L.....my wing

2008-04-03T15:52:00.000+05:30

just for some fun.....jate jate apni wing ko kuch to dena tha na :P....

so thought of making a logo or something.........

this is just the first draft of it......

comments invited....

Life...

2008-03-02T21:18:00.000+05:30

Again going back to bangalore times (how much lukkha time did i have!!!! :P)..... just one of my usuals hand-leg combo in this :D....

This represents the life of a common human being.... there are a lot of factors which shape his life.... technology, his passion, the people he knows..... all of them give a different dimension to his life.... but in the end, it is his fate to which he has to submit.... his destiny is pre-written....

The same funda here too.... pic of a sketch and used photoshop to colour it.....

greenhouse effect....

2008-03-02T21:12:00.000+05:30

A passing thought for our greenhouse affected Mother Earth.... As the scientists say "she's literally on fire".... All the hands symbolize human beings who r ready to kill her... to choke her down... but she can do nothing for she can't speak out her misery, her pains......

This was basically pic of one of my sketches... used some photoshop to add colours to it (ctrl alt z helps a lot u know ;).....

Beauty....

2008-03-02T21:08:00.001+05:30

On of my sketches (+ some photoshopgiri :P) which i drew at bamgalore.... The main thing behind it was that i really liked the dress she's wearing and her hair style also caught my eye..... The background red is just some basic photoshopgiri....

Mahabharat......

2008-02-19T12:17:00.000+05:30

This is a painting on my wall....called the Mahabharat.....

Its about the chir-haran of Draupadi... the politics involved (symbolized by the chess pieces)... and the game of "chaupad".... And behind all this.. Yudhishthir was helpless and could do nothing apart from closing his eyes and crying...

Lahrein....

2008-02-18T21:31:00.000+05:30

Lahrein...

bahut poocha sagar ki in lahron se....

kyun kinare se ye takrati hain....

karti hain ye kinare se bewafai....

ya sagar se wafa nibhati hain.....

Shayari by one of my friends..... This painting is basically an analogy between waves and an indian woman..... Like a wave hits the shore but still says in the sea... similar is the case for a woman.... On the other side of the doorstep stands her dreams, her career... but on this side is her family... her children... So should she fulfill her dreams or should she stay back for her family??? An indian woman chooses her family over her dreams in most of the cases..... So is she justified in doing so....???

Life @ IITB......

2008-02-18T21:22:00.001+05:30

Entry at landscape design competition.....

It shows what we desired, dreamed IIT to be and what it turns out eventually.....

Students come in with great expectations, with high hopes of a better life.... but for some, it doesn't turn out that well.... For them, IIT cuts off a dimension from their lives.... Hopes of good grades, high salaries, etc are thrown straight on their face.... and all that remains for them is to drown in alcohol or even suicide for some.....

Our ears are open to hear all the criticism we face by our failures.... but our mouth is shut......

Nirnay.....

2008-02-18T21:14:00.000+05:30

Nothing better to start the blog then some of my artworks..

This one is one of my favorites.... called "Nirnay".... Twas one of the productive things i did while training at bangalore was sketching......

Its basically a man at the gates of heaven n hell.... The fire separates out his evil (black) and good (white) parts and then decides where the man should go.... So this is the "nirnay" it takes......